The first year of law school has come and gone. It is very true that "they" scare you to death the first year. The good news is that I absolutely love law school. I love what I am studying and I feel that it is what I was created to do. It just fits, in spite of all the stress and pressure that sometimes seems unbearable, it's something that I am so passionate about. There were those weeks that seemed impossible, but by the time I made it through them (only by the grace of God!) I realized that I had built up more intellectual stamina and was actually capable of more than I thought I was.
First semester, my left eye twitched frequently, especially when I was especially tired or the pressure was particularly high. It's one of those things that nobody else noticed, but I felt like I looked like a crazy person. I thought, "Great, now, I have a twitch." Second semester, I made it all the way until finals and only then it was after the most horrendous property 2 final that I began to feel that "crazy lady" twitchy feeling again. All this to say that I began to be less and less phased by all the pressure professors placed on me.
Above everything else, I am just thankful to have made it this far. I know it is only because of the Lord being my strength and my provider that I even have this opportunity! I think back to this time last year when it seemed impossible to even get up to Virginia, much less complete a whole year of law school. The entire thing is a testimony of the Lord's faithfulness to lead and guide, in spite of me.
There have been many mountains to climb, many lessons learned in and out of the classroom this past school year... some things are too personal to broadcast for all to see, but through them all, has been the sweetness of the Lord and His hand leading, once again in spite of me.
It has been a year of realizing what is truly important to me and putting my priorities in order. Coming home to my family this summer has been wonderful and I want to be there for them. Again, some things are too personal for all the world to read, but we are going through and have been going through a very tough situation in my family for a few years now, and just being here with them and helping them is something far more important than filling a summer with classes and externships. A few months ago, I wouldn't have written that, but praise the Lord for His chastening and softening hand, once again, in spite of me.
These first few weeks of summer have been filled with lots of rest and family and friend time. It took about 3 or 4 weeks for me to really learn how to wind down and just relax. It was really very difficult to go from having everything one can possibly imagine to do to nothing. These first few weeks have also been filled with looking for a job. That has been quite trying, but also an exercise in trusting the Lord, for sure! The economy is bad and basically no one really wants to hire just a summer helper. I started the summer optimistic about landing some kind of law related job, with my perfectly edited résumé in hand, but have gotten to the point that I'll take about anything within reason. Thankfully, I should be starting something in the next couple days, which is wonderful news.
It has also been a year of being out of the direct political loop, which I do miss, so I do plan on making some more commentary. There's so much to write about in our society, that I'm not exactly sure where to start. Mostly, it saddens me to see the state of affairs and really the state of men's souls in our country. Political activism is important to me, but more important are the souls stumbling around in darkness. It is truly becoming more and more dark and seemingly hopeless out there, and all the politics and change in the world cannot change the hearts of men. ( When I say men I also mean women; I just refuse to become PC and say men and women...just in case any particularly feminist person reading might feel excluded.) It's sad to see that when so many are going to church, so many are broken and lost.
Well, I think this catches you all up in a very tiny nutshell... there are many more details and many more stories to tell, possibly in future posts. Thank you for stopping by to read!
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